Evolving Mantra

My mantra for quite a number of years has been "Feel the Love".

It has evolved into " Let the love flow".

It keeps me in the moment.
It dissolves frustration and irritation.
It calms me.
It softens me.
It shows up in a smile on my daughters face.

Heart Warming Socks

How can I not be grateful?

G picked out my underwear and socks today. She gave me the heart socks and asked:" Do you know why I gave you those socks with the hearts Mommy?". I said no. She said: " Want jy is my liefste Mamma" (just can't translate that to come up with exactly the same meaning but something to the affect of, "because you are my darling Mama").

A Balancing Act

Any day that I see my daughter happy, laughing, smiling, playing, showing off her new maneuvers on the balancing rope is  a good day in my book. She got the balancing rope for Christmas and she loves it, she is on it every single day (the pictures where taken on Christmas day).

 I am grateful to be at home and spend our afternoons together, to see her counting her blooming flowers, playing catch with Bella, parking her scooter under the kitchen table before dinner, making a raspberry souffle and ice cream in the bath tub (pretending :-) and then asking; "Mamma, what's a souffle?"

I am so blessed

 

 

 

….to have the family i have…. without them I would be lost and scared and alone.  I was taken to the trauma unit last night.  At 3am i woke up feeling my arm was restricted and my hand further limited in use… Julia happened to be sharing our bed..i made my way to nev in the dark feeling weak in my leg and told him i think we need to go to the hospital….by this stage i was a nervous wreck and shaking so much i couldn't walk and my arm was glued to my chest  i was absolutely paralysed with fear and all i could say was I love you to both of them…and that if  I had to stay there Id want a drawing from her every day  She was adorable and calm in her little nightie and sheepskin slippers .I got a dose of an anxiolytic and soon felt calm again….i’\id had a massive frightening panic attack re my progressing symptoms…but on examination by the Dr there he felt it was best for me to wait this one last day before my MRI and that there were no signs of brain bleeds or any life threatening events.

I cant even begin to imagine that there are souls out there that are alone and have no support  - imagine waking up alone petrified about what's happening to your body.

I love you Nev, I love you Julia – you both give me so much strength, joy, comfort and love

To Pay Attention

I am grateful for inspiration and reminders all around us. The notion to first love yourself resonates with me even though it seems to be quite difficult to practice in real life. Awareness is a first step though and it nudges the door open.

Joy

I am grateful to have found joy in painting.
I am grateful for days when I find joy in a great many things.
I am grateful that we made it to school today, although a bit late, accompanied by giggles and laughter and hopping and skipping and jumping.

Little Animal Lover

A quote from Pooh Bear:

“'How do you spell love?' - Piglet
'You don't spell it...you feel it.' - Pooh”

G loves animals and it shows. She had a field day in RSA with all the animals. We went to several animal touch farms. The kids spent close to two hours with the guinea pigs, they just couldn't get enough. She fed and touched every animal she could, and if they allowed her, she gave hugs too. I absolute adore Pluto, the Great Dane, that lives next to my parents. He just allowed G to hug him as often as she wanted too.